NEVER HAD
words and music: Jacques Gaines

Lying alone
alone in my bed
I ponder a feeling
I most certainly dread

Cause love is the thing
that makes me sad
cause it is the one thing
I've never had

You know love can do good
but love can do bad
This you can see
when you've never had

Deep in my heart
there is a space
that I do fear
that I can't face

Cause it makes our heart sing
and that makes me mad
cause love don't mean a thing
when you've never had

You know love can do good
but like a knife it can stab
make you not want to be
cause you've never had

Never had, Never had
Never had, Never had........

But I cannot be patient
it hurts every day
to watch yourself disappear
and your life fading away

When you know love can bring
a smile to the sad
it hurts when it don't sing
inside this lad

You know love can't do good
it ain’t nothing but bad
you just can't be set free
when you've never had

Set me free, set me free!
cause no one's loving me!
love ain't lovin me
'Cause there ain't no one
ain't no one in the world. . .
It ain't lovin me!
Ain’t no one lovin me
there ain't no one lovin me
No one in the world is lovin me . . . . . .

YOUR NAME
words and music: Jacques Gaines

Since you've been away I want it known
that my flesh and bone has been all alone

And despite all the love that I gave so pure
I had to endure a way so unsure

I gave away my heart and soul and yes a piece of me
shatters to the ground in pieces lying at you feet
All that I've been through
Baby you're so cruel

And despite all this

Every time I whisper your name
something falls apart
like sorrow art
A masterpiece with your brush you paint
of a girl that breaks a boy's
already broken heart

My frame of mind and pride say that I rule
just play it cool. Don't be a fool

Singin I'm the man whose strong and keeps his ground
Outside I'm up but inside I'm down

I'm dreaming of the day that I don't think of loving you
To me there's no end to the way that I be feeling blue
There are words I cannot say
Words I keep away

And every time I whisper your name
something falls apart
like sorrow art
A masterpiece with your brush you paint
of a girl that breaks a boy’s
already broken heart
already broken heart
already broken heart

and every time I whisper your name
Something falls apart. . . . .

I DREAMED
words and music: Jacques Gaines

I dreamed the other day of singing angels
kissing the top of the Empire state
and a president at a bus stop
smoking weed while he waits

I dreamed the other night
of fireflies that play
of dogs barking at a blue moon
a moon the dogs said had to pay
for the crime of not being noon
The other night I dreamed that I dreamed

That I’ll wake up from these dreams
And sorrow will crawl so near
You see if these dreams come true
I truly fear
That all these dreams I dreamed
are gonna fade away

I dreamed the other night
of clouds over a human sea
of raindrops of love
soaking up you and me
And not a dog could bark "
as the children played in the park
The other I dreamed that I dreamed

that I’ll wake up from these dreams
and sorrow fills my veins
you see if these dreams come true
we will erase the pain
I hope all these dreams I dream
won’t fade away
won’t fade away

Who knows maybe dreams can come true
Who knows maybe someone else is dreaming me and you
Who knows maybe dreams are just for the few
dreams are just for the few . . . . . .

that I’ll wake up from these dreams
and sorrow fills my veins
you see if these dreams come true
we will erase the pain
I hope all these dreams I dream
You see all these dreams I dream
You see all these dreams I dream….
Just fade away

 I dreamed the other day
of children playing in the park
and now the dogs didn't bark
and the president rode away
and when I opened my eyes
I could see the children play
When the night turns into day
to everyone I can say that I dreamed
the children played.

TAKE ME
Words and music: Jacques Gaines

When your body’s weak
and your hands are bound
and you wanna get your will
up off the ground

Well you wanna walk
but your heart stays still
you feel one half bliss
and one half ill

When these feelings are eating
you away
cause you know without her you can’t live
one more day

and all that you've seen and been
says there's no way you gonna win
You’ve gotta say

Take me. Don't break me
I've opened up my heart do not forsake
And hold me. Unfold me
Of this love you give no one had told me

When you mind fills up
with a growing doubt
and there's a wonder what this love's all about

You feel you've gotta walk
cause they just can't see
that this love ain’t what it's supposed to be

And with your heart your mind does play
cause you know without her you can’t live one more day
You’ve got to say

Take me. Elevate me
From this loving dream do not awake me
And breathe me. Don't leave me
A love without you that you must relieve me

relieve me relieve me relieve me   Don’t you know that my body’s weak
relieve me relieve me relieve me   There’s a whole that you fill baby
relieve me relieve me relieve me   You’ve got to fill the whole
relieve me relieve me relieve me   Cause inside of me there ain’t nothing no nothing at all 

And I'm giving in, I'm givin
doing this all with a grin
You're in my brain, my soul, and my skin
I'm giving in, I'm givin
That is when I try to stop the spin

you make me, you break me
you are taking me and making me break
you’re makin me break. . . . 

HUMAN BIZ
words and music: Jacques Gaines

Some people think me a little strange
seems my world is upside down
wonderin’ why the sky is blue, and how the wrights flew
and if a tree  falls in the forest. . .  
does it make a sound

Some people think me a little odd
you see my world ain’t quite the same
cause I'm wondering where the hell is God
on this messy globe where ain’t no one want to take the blame

And I’m wonderin’ why this all is
this crazy foolish human biz
you see I look at what we’ve done
and what we are
and now I just don’t know
how we got this far

Some people think me a bit bizarre
cause the truth I believe in and hold
you see I want to be getting the way things are
to most "people" that’s a story seldom told

And I’m wonder why this all is
this crazy foolish human biz
you see I look at what we’ve done
and what we are
and now I just don’t know
how we got this far, how we got this far
how we got this far, how we got this far
and all along the hell they make
and all along the hell they make
and all along the hell they make

Some people see me a bit obtuse
that I'm waking up my mind so far
to the freely flowing love abuse
it's what makes us humans …us humans what we are

NEW YORK SORROW
words and music: Jacques Gaines

So it’s over what can you say
Emanating blue on the way
So many ways that this could end

a Soho coffee shop
a Manhattan subway stop
gossip between two close friend

You’re making me live in
a New York sorrow
You got me sinkin’
in this Lincoln tunnel tomorrow
Is there a pill that I can chew
to wipe away the love of you
Don’t you know the York ain’t new
baby without you

There’s a weight weighing on my feet
as I turn 32nd street
turning my heart from light to dark

City takes on a whole new view
when I know that it’s without you
Everything living dies in central park

And I’m hopin’
in this big apple rain
I can find a
way to accept the pain
Is there a train that I can board
to leave this town and you Oh lord
I would

WHEN ALL TURNS TO SAND
words and music: Jacques Gaines

On the pillow
a precious head now falls asleep
weeping willow
how will a willow weep so deep

but when she awakes, make no mistake
there is a man to answer her call
and I will try to dry her eyes
hold her up when she falls
 
Cities and buildings can scrape to the sky
but if her heart's still willing our love can fly
rockets may take off and rockets may land
but our love will prosper
when all turns to sand

Red and purple
fill her mind with dreams destroyed
all in circles
spinning so fast she cant see the boy

I'll do anything to try to bring
the girl back to me
but to stop the spin she's gotta let me in
set all that pain free

Cities and buildings can scrape to the sky
but if her heart's still willing our love will fly
rockets may take off and rockets may land
but our love will prosper
when all turns to sand

Sand
A million grains and one of them is me
Sand
Even one grain can set a boulder free
Sand
Turns to glass with enough heat
Built from below even buildings need sand to grow

IT WHISPERS
music: Jacques Gaines, Stephan Moccio, Chantal Blanchais
lyrics: Jacques Gaines

It will take away your frown
Bring you up when you are down
No it doesn't make a sound
it whispers

It is cold and it is kind
Can make you see or make you blind
and when it comes it shows no sign
and whispers

And now I delay it
'cause I just can't say it
I need you now. Come show me how
to make it crystal make it clear
Put my lips close to your ear
and whisper

It builds castles makes them fall
Makes you run, makes you crawl
Pay attention when it calls
'cause it whispers

It will take you far away
The universe in just one day
come in April come in May
it whispers

So please pay attention
Love is my confession
I need you now. Come show me how
to make it crystal make it clear
Put my lips close to your ear
and whisper . . . .

Love can come and love can go
Like you it can make me grow
Make you cheer and cry although
it whispers

WOULD IT REALLY MATTER
words and music:  Jacques Gaines

If I were to sweep you off your feet
would it really matter
If I were to love everything that you are
would it really matter
Well if the "if" were "can" then something real would shatter
well matter would
and matter should
and matter could
and that to me matters na na na. . . .

If you were to understand my every need
would it really matter
If you took my bad with all my good
would it really matter
Well if the "if" were "when" my soul would be so flattered
well matter would
and matter should
and matter could
and that to me matters na na na. . . .

If I were to up and run away
would it really matter
If there were a way for me to stay
would it really matter
that’s when the “if” becomes “then”, then the world is just one platter
where matter could
and matter should
and matter would…..

TRACE OF TRACY
Words and music: Jacques Gaines

Tracy's placin pain and power
on my doorstep
but I'm willing, wishing, wanting the hour
with one minute less

Tracy's rolling rubbing anointing
all the things I say
but I'm dabbling doing disappointing
as I walk away

but lately I’m overcome
by the foolish things I’ve done
I need a Trace of Tracy

Thought I could show her
but now it's over
and it's eating away at my heart
The pain never ceases
it tears me to pieces
well my world is torn apart
I need a new space to place Tracy

Tracy's tears are already taken
by another man
cause the one who’s singing here was mistaken
by a selfish plan

you see lately I've been defeated
my bravado's been deleted
and placed with Tracy

Thought I 'd control her
but now that's over
and she’s eating away at my heart
The pain does awaken
a boy that's mistaken
This is justice just like art

I know I could find grace, I know I could find grace
I know I could find grace, I know I could find grace

and now that I give up
I've just got to live up
sew the world that is torn apart
As I go on livin
I must be forgivin
the boy that broke Tracy's heart
I need to erase every trace of Tracy

Where are you Tracy cause I’m making a stand…
Cause I know I can love you like nobody can….
Tell me Tracy. . .  why you walking away?